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ke-busy-an tahap melampau

2012-01-28T11:41:00.000-08:00

Since i'll be facing a real big examination by the end of 2012, which is SPM, i'm now focusing so hard on my studies. Which is the main reason i hardly have time even for myself. No weekends and time to hangout or chilling anymore. T_________T''

But , to think on the bright side, i believe that everything will turn up to be fine later. I guess it's not really that hard to adapt with this kind of busy schedule for only another 11 month. Well, no pain no gain aite?

So yeah , THOUSANDS OF APOLOGIES , but i wont be able to post 'posts' constantly until SPM ends.
And please please, it would be a great pleasure if u would pray for the very best for me. Only god will repay you. Jazakallahu khairan kathira, :)

Sincerely,
Atikah Athirah,

Ragut and Gathering

2011-12-27T08:43:00.000-08:00

1st ; Ragut

I was placing stuffs in the car boot when suddenly a guy snatched Nina's phone from her hand. I was like, 'what the hell just happened ? ' . It happened too fast and both of us couldn't do anything. I FROZED man, pffffft, besides than screaming i was not helping at all. So disappointed of myself. =____=''

So yeah, Nina's phone got snatched by some unknown devil evil guy. *i hope you will rot in hell*
Kesian nina. :(

To ladies , girls out there ;

Please be extra caution where ever you are. These devils can Pop out of the Least expected places.
Please use backpacks rather than handbags. Trust me, it will reduce the chances to be a victim.
Don't hold ur phone too long in public or crowded places. Better to put it in ur pocket or bag.
Take extra caution while walking alone .

And the worst thing was ,

everything happened right in front of my face and house. wth? AND THE GUY WAS MALAY!!! Apa nih aniaya kaum sendiri ?? !@#$%^&*%$

Semoga Allah memberikan hidayah dan petunjuk kepada peragut tuh. Allah maha adil, tunggu lah balasan.

2nd ; Gathering

So yeah, FINALLY 3 Al-lughatul Arrabiyyah (3BA) 2010 gathered ! :)

Ohoho, yeah~~ I'm so red today. :P

to view today's pictures click ;

Gathering :)

Sepetang bersama mereka <3

Forever and ever .

Both of these happened on the same day.

And yet, Nina still could smile during the whole gathering-time. She's a strong girl. :)

Senior-junior relationships and trip (kedah)

2011-12-25T10:27:00.000-08:00

One of the last moments spent with them in the dorm (S2B4 SMS Tuanku Jaafar) . Had a great time ;

It was kinda weird at first since i thought that boarding school is all bout those seniority shiznits. But hey, it seemed that NOT ALL SENIORS were like that. so yeah, Alhamdulillah , i had wonderful seniors there ! :)

And without them maybe i wouldn't even have the chance to make it this far. They were one of the main reasons i managed to survive in Biology, Chemistry and Physics. (i'm sorry that i died in addmath though, hahahah) . XD
They are my tutor, sis, and obviously someone that i can count on. :)
thanx for everything.

creds for pictures ; Dean Jani (untitled memory)

pic one n two , from left ; Atihrah Waren ( k.Tyra ) , me , Deanna Jani ( k.Dean ) , oh n the epic hand belongs to Adibah Hanani ( k.Dba ) :P
pic three , from left ; Yasmin , Deanna Jani ( k.Dean ) , me , Adibah Hanani ( k.Dba ) , Azilatul Zahlia

trip

KL - Penang - Kedah . ouh, my butt couldn't get any stiffer than this. 5++ hours journey was tiresome. But it was worth it.
It's priceless to see the happy faces of parents during their children's wedding. Maybe i should get married soon ? Wahahahhahahahahahahaah , just kidding XDD

But yeah , it was fun, meeting cousins and all. I wish all the very best to the new bride, Asni Musfirah <3 Adam Noor Aizat. :)

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p/s ~ cheeeeck this out, got Jay Park and a bit of Justin Barbie in it., Ops, sorry, bieber. Justin Bieber. XDD

walking the talk, lol

2011-12-21T09:54:00.000-08:00

will be sitting 2 hours for Chemistry class tomorrow. It's going to be my last chemistry class with Mrs. Nur Cahaya Sinaran for this Disember . Wish me all the best aite, :P

the credit for this wonderful image goes to "here" !

ps ~ my teacher has a cool name ? yeap, absolutely! it's truly rare and somehow catchyy , ;)

i'm saying this now because i don't want to lose u later

2011-12-21T06:23:00.000-08:00

"Any relationships wont work if its only going on a one way road "

kalau betul-betul rasa sayang, jangan lah macam nih. Saya dah penat sebenarnya.

^ As stated above ^ ; selama mana pon hubungan tuh dah terjalin, ia tidak mungkin akan bertahan jika hanya satu pihak saje yang selalu 'give in' dan 'just suck in everything' .

Our friendship's value worth more than this , friend

ps ; sometimes the magic words ; "thank you and please" really do change things. so why not try to learn use them ? :)

spm? LOL =___=''

2011-12-20T12:39:00.000-08:00

If i keep on going with this so-so lifestyle, all the dreams for SPM will be over.

Today's Physics class was awesome and LOUD as the teacher was so excited as usual Lah. But then, when he started talking and explaining bout chapter 5 in physics that is LIGHT (which is damn hard) , i swear i was so BLUR and WTH ? this should Not be happening. At least not NooooooooooW? ,, =______=''

HELLO , i'm facing my SPM in less than 12 month?

sweetie TRIAL in more or less 10 month?

horrible Mid year exam in 6 month?

And truly, the nearest, an exam is surely coming in about more or less 1 month !

What to do? GO PICK UP A BOOK AND READ. NOT JUST REAAAD. AT LEAST START PREPARING SOMETHING !

haiyo man, get a grip get a grip.

i feel so stu-peeeeeed right now . And yeah, the way the teacher looked at the students was not really a-spirit-lift-up at all. har har , i felt like i'm soo farr off-track. :O

tired of hearing people telling me that i'm not capable of doing this and that,

So yeah, no more playing around, LET'S WIN THIS with my own way! ;DDD

insyaAllah, all the best SPM 2012. :)

<3 pray for us.

tag-tag

2011-12-15T22:22:00.000-08:00

i was tagged by nur sabrina yang 'kecik n kiut', lol :P

Ok, so here goes ...

You must post these rules.
Each person must post 11 things about themselves in their journal.
Answer the question the tagger set for you to post AND create 11 new questions for people you tagged to answer.
You have to choose 11 people to tag and link them on the post.
Go to their page and tell them you have tagged him/her.
No tag back.No stuff in the tagging section about "You are tagged if you are reading this". You legitimately a.k.a really, trust with all honesty have tagged 11 people.

Siapa yang anda fikirkan sekarang?

Tadi baru baca pasal Sheikh Muszaphar. So tengah fikir pasal dia la sekarang, hahahah XD

Azam untuk 2012 ni dah fikir? Apa?

dah! :)

InsyaAllah nak berubah kepada lebih baik. Dan fokus 100% untuk SPM.

Tempat yang korang paling nak pergi?

Pulau Sipadan. heee, :P

Mesej terakhir daripada siapa?

Ainina Ab Latif. Dia cakap pasal duet. lol

Pernah kehilangan orang tersayang?

Pernah. Paling sedeh time my granddad passed away. i love him . :(

Sudah berpunya? Siapakah yang bertuah sangat tu? hihi.

Hahah, no.

Novel Melayu dan Inggeris kesukaan anda?

Melayu ; Terasing by Hilal Asyraf.

Eng ; The series of Percy Jackson, :)

Bilakah anda tengok wayang kali terakhir? Movie apa?

Diary of the Wimpy Kid 2, "rodrick rules!" . tak ingat la bila, lama sangat dah, hahah

Dah pergi holiday? Pergi mana? Jelaskan perasaan anda ketika itu. hehe.

Untuk this hols ? mmm, belum. Baru nak pergi Singapore lah nih today. :)

Rasa diri korang tu dah matang ke belum?

Separuh-separuh. ;P

Bercita-cita untuk menjadi seorang ...... ? dan goodluck!

A doctor. hee, <3 thanx, :)

This post is specially to answer the tags. :P Lol, i'm too lazy to create any questions, so yeahhh.... i'm not tagging anyone. Sorry sorry x)

baby just close ur eyes and JUMP !

2011-12-12T09:32:00.000-08:00

i'm going to face Physics tomorrow for 4 hours straight. So yeah, i'm putting my life on the line heree, lol .

SPM sure is killing every bits of me. In fact it is like forcing my emotional, physical, pink, soft, cute brain to pop out ! Geeeeez,

i really need to get hold of myself.

Or i'll end up having mental disorder, XD

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ps! ~ My third brother asked me about driving lisence , Heee, Sooo there's a big chance that he is giving me a free pre-class tutor for "cars". cant wait to start the engine ! broom broooom, xP

Some spiritual nourishment tips for myself to ponder,

Hablu minallah, Hablu minannas

"connections with Allah swt, Connections with people " :)

remember, "the man who decided to change on the twelfth hour died on the eleventh."

"you've got a friend in me"

2011-12-05T05:31:00.000-08:00

what did i learnt from jan-nov 2011?

well, the biggest lesson is mostly about friends. i realized that without friends i wouldn't even have the chance to come this far. :)

in STJ , (that is going to be my ex school in another few days, lol)
i learnt about

being sincere is the most crucial in relationships. If u want to keep it for long lah,
professional backstabber, Hahahah, guess what, it's easy to be one but only do it if u want to end up dying alone
pure hardness-ship living without family.
Punctuality . Oke, until now i'm still a super looser at this, >.<
And lastly, love and care for ur buddies. :)

There are also things that i learnt from my friends in KL through out this jan to nov ;

-Commitment
-Perseverance
Amazing Sincerity !

We are not perfect. But there are things that we can always do to try to improve through the 'thick and thin' s of friendship. Even if u are separated by any means, Dont take ur friends for granted, love them, care for them, feel their love.

As for my friends ;

I'm sorry for all the terrible and horrible things that i 'd done. I'm trying to enhance myself as well, as i know that i have many many maany flaws. Let's work this out together and aim for flying colours for our dearest SPM. As, for seniors, hee, congratulations for your freedom ! :P
I love you friends ! :)

Thank you Allah for my friends ! :)

p/s ~ changed the background ! lol , sorry if it's too disturbing, hahah, too lazy to find other interesting picture. <3 cute ramen naruto, x)

Pengapit Kehormat

2011-11-26T10:13:00.000-08:00

Lol, it was awkward. Let the pictures tell ,

this one is my fav, :P

=__________________=''

So yeap, sorry Atil for not being a very good cute normal sweet adorable pengapit. But at least i tried my best...... ? x)

*winkwink* XD

p/s ~ when i was told that i had to be the pengapit. seriously, i got nervous. i was more nervous than the bride. pffffffffffft,

aidiladha,

2011-11-05T12:05:00.000-07:00

Sedalam mana kita terjatuh,

Sepedih mana mata menahan,

Segentar mana kaki untuk melangkah ke hadapan,

Sentiasalah mengingati Allah. Dalam setiap keadaan sekalipun.
InsyaAllah, Allah swt tidak akan melupakan hambanya yang sentiasa mengingatiNya, ^_______^

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AidilAdha Mubarak !

Semoga Allah swt memberkati dan meredai segala perbuatan yang kita lakukan, insyaAllah :)

ps ~ Raya aidiladha selalu dikaitkan dengan pengorbanan. Apa itu pengorbanan? [in general terms]

"Seseorang itu dimuliakan bukanlah disebabkan oleh apa yang dimilikinya, tetapi kerana pengorbanannya untuk memberikan manfaat untuk orang lain.
Sesungguhnya pengorbanan itu bermaksud, usaha seorang hamba untuk mendekatkan diri kepada penciptanya melalui amal perbuatannya yang ikhlas.
Jujur adalah sebuah pengorbanan yang tidak hanya membuat diri kita terhormat di mata orang lain tetapi lebih utama lagi, terhormat di sisi Allah.
.........

Allah sangat mencintai orang-orang yang selalu ingin membahagiakan orang lain dengan apa yang dimilikinya.

Semakin seseorang itu banyak berkorban untuk orang lain, semakin mulialah dia di sisi Allah dan manusia.

.........

Allah sangat mencintai orang-orang yang berkorban untuk mendapatkan keredhaanNya, kerana itu menunjukkan cinta sejati pada Allah."

kopi paste from ; HERE !

ps2 ~ insyaAllah semoga kita mendapat taufiq hidayah dan bermuhasabah untuk menjadi lebih baik daripada semalam. :]

say WOAH

2011-11-04T06:14:00.000-07:00

the last passed two weeks was damn hard. With the Final Exam part and those nonsense things that happened. Aiyo, life IS though. phew~~~ T_________________T''

ouh! not to forget. thanx to every helping hands that helped. you guys know who you are. I love you guys ! Jazakallahu Khairan Kathira! :D

AND

Believe this or not, i'm taking a diff route now. Different path from planned. Well, i decided to 'tarik diri' from SBP because of certain reasons. Scared? Nervous? pffft, of course lah. This is a big one.
Big decision that might either benefit or break my dreams.

Some WILL SAY (ada yang dah cakap dah pon) that i'm doing something stupid, selfish, being spoiled, anak manja and whatsoever lah. But please, before start making assumptions and conclusions, ask me first. I repeat, ASK ME FIRST. i'll be gladly to give you my reasons. :D

so, i hope no more assumptions will be spread or heard. thx,^^

p/s~ lovely peeps! please pray for me. please please please. >.<

Ya Allah, i hope that i'm doing the right thing. Guide my way.

i mish home!

2011-10-03T21:21:00.000-07:00

i seriously, really really missing my home, my bed, my pc, my BLOG (which i even almost forgot my password =_=' ) , my everything. i miss my previous Life!

Ya Allah, please give me strength. There's still a loooong way to go until Spm!
Ouh yea, talking about exams.... Best of luck to my lovable juniors for PMR. :P
For pmr candy-dates in SMKSK, i'll be doa-ing for you here! :D

goodluckgoodluckgoodluckgoodluckgoodluckgoodluckgoodluckgoodluckgoodluckgoodluckgoodluck

(^_^)v

Ouh, i'll be back home by 14th Oct. Jyeah! Let's lepak and eat,. ;P

Can't wait to be home!!

p/s ; i lost weight.

say wee~! (aisyah zainal)

2011-07-23T01:05:00.000-07:00

i'm going to Terengganu this monday for some school activities. I feel lucky enough since i'd only been to 'Ganu' once. So i'm pretty excited! ;P

I heard that the place i'm going to is quite near to the sea, so apalagi. Heheheh, swimming swimming swimming! XD
yeah~ as if ustaz will let me. Little information ; actually i'm going there to attend "nadwah". A camp (but we'll be staying in hostels) for islamic-leadership-building.
This is kewl since i had never been to one. hehee,

There are still many many mannnny new things to learn. :D
And surely i Am excited bout this! "Ganuuuuu" waaait for me, ;D

p/s~ aisyah, i'm going to ur hometown! but eh, no matter what, i'm not going to try any of the 'budu'(s), keep that in mind. :P

From left, lien, AISYAH, me , k.qis.

Everytime this terengganu thing pop out, aisyah will pop pop in my mind as well,

uuuu~ i mish u ecah! be good in Intergomb n make me prooooud! x)

a takoyaki post

2011-06-11T11:21:00.000-07:00

going back to STJ tomorrow~
try to imagine how my face is right now. Eh, wait. no, dont.
Tak guna imagine muka yang betul-betul dah tak ada semangat nak hidup. Yeah right, i dont want to go back. Mom dad, dont send me there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tak sayang ke anak perempuan sorang nih!!! >.<

But no matter how hard i begged, tak ada kesan langsung. Dah immune kot, hahah
merajuk macam mana pon macam tak ada effect je, =___=''

Zzzz, baju tak packing lagi, beg tak sentuh sejak balek hari tuh, cuma last sentuh untuk keluarkan baju busuk je. hebat tak? XD

Hmph, so, by hook or by crook, i am still going tomorrow. Accept the fact atikah, accept accept accept.

*that is how my face looks like*

and it's aint gonna change until we reach stj. "mogok pakai muka". =___=''

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ps~ why seunggi and takoyaki?

because i'll be missing them both the most. heheh

*takoyaki*
i once posted about this food. ingat tak? :P

It hurts,. Sincha sinchaaaa,

2011-06-06T09:13:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, assumptions do kills people real hard.
Sometimes, your assumptions kills me though,

Silly me to think that you would fully understand.

Things do change, :)

It does.

watch and learn, :)

2011-06-01T09:42:00.000-07:00

For those who haven't watch it yet
do watch. and learn the lessons. it's a cool movie. :)

ouh,
the second picture is the Evil brother. Ain't he resembles someone? =__________=''

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you wont love something truly until u had lost it

so, do Appreciate and Love.

love love love! ;D

2011-06-01T08:30:00.000-07:00

must watch;

This song is addicting! :P

yonghwa and jonghyun are too awesome to explain. <3 especially jonghyun, ngeee~ x)

***just found out about it. T^T'

grrrr, getting in 'asrama' life is making me so back-dated in everything. Can't wait to finish high-school. only then i can lead a normal life. =______________=''

jyeeeah! ganbatte!

only one and a half year to go! wee~

fly me to the moon!

2011-05-28T03:42:00.000-07:00

it's holiday! and of course, i'm super excited!

getting me out of the school is like giving me air to breath, ice cream to eat, shoes to jump, rocket to fly fly fly! :D

Oke, enough with the 'hiperbola', lets be serious. Hehhh , as if i can.

Mmmm, what's new?

well, my birthday is coming pretty soon. really excited to accept gifts. Wahahah, so friends, mom, dad! Prepare ur money right away!!

*joke joke* ;)

About STJ, that is currently my school, and almost my 'second-home-to-be', problems come and go, grades rise and drop. Lol, but i think i can quite, almost likely adapt there. Thanx to all friends there with all your supports and love. i appreciate them a LOT! (^_^)v

And the coolest thing bout there is, gossipsss can spread through among students and teachers faster than it spreads in facebook, twitter etc. Ahahah, that's super cool to me for certain reasons. ;P

OUH AND,

another thing, friends here, in Seri Keramat KL (esp 3ba). i really really really really dont want to feel any distances is created between us although i moved awaaay. I promise things will get better. i will try my best to prevent any awkwardNESS. And and for things that had been going here, i'll try catching up oke, :D

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Those who don't obey the rules are scums,

But those who abandon their friends are worse than scums,

-Hatake Kakashi :)

blog berhabuk.(mini-post)

2011-03-28T21:06:00.000-07:00

it seems like forever since i last updated this blog. =___________=''

Since i went to STJ things started to get complicated. But when i talk to someone (actually many people already :P) they always say that "that is life, hold on to it! "
So, i guess now i am quite emotionLess here. i dont really feel anything,. Well.... I dont want to, since i dont want to mess up my mind.

Besides, 1 and a half year is not a long time. So i just need to hold on just until that. Jyeah! :D

I'll update other things later.
:)

6 true facts

2011-02-02T04:47:00.000-08:00

one;

i thought my life will be easier and happier if i get good results and all. But i still feel indifferent even so. What i feel is quite the same as what i felt before.

two; (this where the hard part gets alive)

i got the chance to go to a boarding school. Which is a good news to certain sides. But to me?

Truth to be told. I really dont want to go. But......

There will be more and more 'but's if i keep on going. So i guess there's no point after all. And i cant talk or deny about this. Because i already know the simple answer for it. dammit

three;

i dont want to forget everything that i have and had. I have a life here. My friends, my teachers, memories and memories......... i dont want to let them go. :(

four;

Going away and separation feels soo hard. And i dont feel normal about this.

There is too much crying. My eyes transformed like a panda's already, T^T

five;

I dont know what SMS Tuanku Jaafar is like. So, i wont comment anything bout it. Except , it is going to be HOT there since Kuala Pilah is one of the driest spot in Malaysia. @#$%^&*

six;

I'm going away on 7th Feb 2011. Goodbye wonderful life,

~bbq 3ba'10, 1 feb 2011,

i dont want to forget this moment, <3 ^^

zoo. :)

2010-12-17T09:08:00.000-08:00

my house is only about 1km away from zoo negara, but i had only been there once with my dad. But the only memory that i can remember was the time we played at the KFC's playground. Hahahah, no point,. I cant recall the animals at all. :P

Heehhh, we went there yesterday! Supposed to meet up at 9 something. But as usual, "Janji Melayu" pukul 10 baru nampak muka semua orang. :P
It was quite a zoofun. Well,.. there's not really much of excitement there. Hahah, what do u expect~ it's a zoo. >.>
Except when the time that we played in the rain. That was fun! :P

^^some of the pictures^^

gamba tak banyak, sebab yg laen nina hilangkan, :P

ps~ Ouh yeah! bring ur myKad with u when purchasing the tickets, its a lot cheaper if u do so. Can save bout RM10! Fyi, the normal adult rate ticket with no myKad is RM30. Damn expensive~! Aaah, also the food price inside the zoo! Aiye, the zoo is such a money sucker. x)

selingan, hehhh

2010-12-15T09:18:00.000-08:00

Result pmr sekonfem-konfemnya keluar @ 23.12.2010.

~>source,

berpeluh satu badan dah. Takut dia mengalahkan macam orang yang nak pergi berperang pulak. Siot je.

p/s~ kalau salah info sorilaaah, blame the source. x)

result assault !

2010-12-12T09:04:00.000-08:00

Yeah, as a normal citizen, i do care. x)
I spend most of my time thinking about it. Even sometimes i feel like i'm being too exaggerative and sensitive when it comes to this matter.
They said the date is confirmed 23rd disember 2010. I dont know though, maybe they'll change it again. Like they did before. =_=''

Well, if IT is 23rd, so that's mean only 10 days left.
I dont think that i'm mentally ready, but there's not really anything else to do except tawakal n doa. hahahah, So lets doa A LOT ! jyeah!!
May Allah gives us the very best for ourselves. Amin :)

Jyeah, the moment of shiver and fear,.*adapted frm fb* x)

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Apart from waiting for the result, i'm perfectly normal. x)
Ouh yeah, i rearrange my stuffs in my room. It seems pretty nice. I prefer this arrangement than before. But heehh, it took quite a lot of sweat and tiredness to do this kind of arrangement stuffs. Aiye, it was so tiring. But when u enjoy the result, it is not so bad. :D

come again! ;D

D-day !

2010-11-29T09:16:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow is D-day! i'll be taking my Ukkm Mara's exam .
Hah, tomorrow is one of the days that i am most scared of. ~,~'

I asked around and the answers were all quite the same. Everyone said that it's hard. Hahahah , and by hearing all that, my confidence drowned away. T_T
Well, there's no turning back . And there's still time to study! ;D
So, jyeahhhhh!!!!!!!!! Lets do this!

*ps~ wish me luck! :)

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I'm still sad and shock bout the news of the accident. He was a great senior. We will miss you.

Al-Fatihah untuk Allahyarham Naim. Semoga dia ditempatkan di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman.

new daily routine,,

2010-11-22T04:33:00.000-08:00

Wuish wuish, today was quite a hard day. I had to walk to tuition that is about 1km+ from my house. It was midday, and by then i just realized that Malaysia is HOT! seriously, hot hot. ~_~''

But Alhamdulillah, thanx to my strong will, i'm still alive~! ;D

AH, okay, i'll stop exaggerating the story from here on.

So, i reached tuition, and started doing physics and math. And bla bla bla, i went home at 6pm by bus. At first i thought it'll take long to wait for the bus, but Alhamdulillah, it was only 5 minutes. :)
When the bus came, i never felt so haaaapppy. (Since i am very very hungry and cant wait to eat at home.) But then, when i saw the crowd inside the bus..... hell yeah i was shoked!

Memang macam udang lah kan dalam tuh. Adehh,
Thank god, it took less than 5 minutes and i'm home! hee :D

i guess i'll be spending this whole week with this routine from now on. I dont really like it, since it's tiring and made me sweat quite much. hahahah
But , i guess it's fine with me as long as i know that i'm one of the lucky ones that still have the chance to study. And no doubt that i can lose some weight. :P

Conclusion ~ appreciate ur parents money & dont be satisfy with the knowledge that u already have. keep searching for more and more and more .

No Pain No Gain, heheh

p/s ~ i support public transport! *although it doesnt smell good in there, but it's cheap.* ;D

not much

2010-11-20T23:00:00.000-08:00

well, We (3 b.a) had our final gathering as classmates for the last time at Titiwangsa. Yang tak pergi naseb korang lah. Lepas nih semua akan ikut haluan sendiri lah nampaknya. 3 tahun bukan masa yang pendek. Hahahah, to share the same class with those guys for 3 years were amazing. We (together) learnt a lot about life, friendship, betrayal and other stuffs as well. :')

(browse @ facebook to see the pictures at titiwangsa,) :D

Ouh, the Ujian Kecenderungan for MRSM is at 30th nov. Chyeeah, i am counting the days for it already. Ramai yang kata ujian tuh susah tahap dewa though, hahahah . And the best part, i dont know how can i make myself prepare for it. Well, i'll think of something lah nanti, tengok lah dulu macam mana.

The school website dah tergantung tak bertali for quite some time now. But EDUNET didnt repair the site yet, so lets wait for them to make the first move. And according to plan, this december we'll go through everything again. Sorry everyone for the inconvenience. !

And heee, sorry if i'm a bit too late. But,

Aidil Adha Mubarak. ^_^

And for those muslims that are performing their hajj. May Allah makes everything easier for you,,
-i wonder how is it feels like to actually stand in front of Kaabah? It must be an unimaginable and a subjective feeling. Well then, i'll just wait for my turn to come, then i can feel it for myself. ;)

~~~~~~~~~

Dont let the strong wind sway you down,

be tough.

ps~ gambar waffle tade kena mengena dengan post. Sebab baru makan semalam, jadik nak show off lah siket. Tuh je, x)

tiupan maut!

2010-11-09T10:15:00.000-08:00

walaweh, i cant sleep tonight. Hahahah, so i spent the time doing some addmath. I get bored, and so i tried to sleep. But my eyes cant seem to act as i told them to. =.='

now, I'm wondering about the exam. PMR.
Thinking about the answers that i wrote. And the ''pemeriksa''
The more i try to imagine his face, the scarier it gets. Seriously, it is scary yoh. T.T''
Hooohhh!!

I just cant get over it!

And heheh, i still remember the moment before i handed the answer sheets. Every 'doa' yang terlintas, semua ditiup-tiup. It's kinda weird, but ...... still, i hope that the doa will somehow play it's part. :)

*******

Allahummal tufbina fi taisiri kulli 'asir. Fainna taisiro kulli 'asirin 'alaika yasir

Ya, Allah, permudahkan lah segala kesulitan. Sesungguhnya, mudah bagimu untuk permudahkan setiap kesulitan. :)

my neighbour was robbed ,

2010-11-07T08:57:00.000-08:00

We dont know the exact time this thing took place. But Alhamdulillah it happened when there's no one at home.

So guys, after this, check the doors and locks before going to sleep. And not to forget! Your toilet windows as well!! Since, it's dangerous nowadays. :'(
And err, there was the police and everything. From what i heard, the house was treated just like a crime scene as what we are seeing in CSI. *so cool!*
But unfortunately, i was sleeping when they were processing the house, so i missed it. hahaahaha, talking about choosing the perfect time to sleep,. :P

Well well, let bygone be bygone. But all we can do now is
pray to Allah and wish for the best.
InsyaAllah, Allah will make everything easier for us. Amin.

tako tao

2010-11-05T23:39:00.000-07:00

Waah, its been a looong time since i updated this blog. uhm, well well, PMR is over, that's a good news. :)
We will get the results by 28th Dec 2010. So, rather than worrying about how the result might turn up, i think it's better if i focus on doing something else and something 'enjoyable', ;)

Hihih, i bought some japanese food called 'tako tao'. At first before i tasted it, i thought it is just like a so-so. But! i was wrong! the taste was quite awesome. And i love it, x)
here are some pictures of the takotao. if u want to see how tako tao actually is,

credits to nina because she introduced the tako tao! :D

it's raya! :D

2010-09-09T11:04:00.001-07:00

well, i'm here just to wish HAPPY EID MUBARAK everyone. Maaf zahir dan batin, :)

enjoy and spend ur raya days well!

Bulan ramadhan diserikan dgn ibadah,
bulan syawal diindahi dgn ukhuwah,
semoga dalam bulan syawal yang mulia ini, kita akan sentiasa berada di bawah naungan Allah s.w.t . InsyaAllah, :)

#wink wink; for those who is going to date pmr. 'The thing' is not so far away now. Dont forget to flood ur mind and soul with books!
This note is unfortunately for F3 students. Including myself. Ha ha ha T.T

in a blink,

2010-09-06T18:11:00.003-07:00

a country can collapse
a building can collide
a tie can be broken
anything CAN happen!

dont take drastic or even dramatic actions. Because we just dont know what might happen in the next blink,. ;)

but no matter what happen next, just keep moving forward. :)

# we got our trial result. Mine was not the thing to be cry on. And not something to be boast around. Alhamdulillah, it was just ok. :)

fasting days, :D

2010-08-21T06:10:00.000-07:00

too busy to post latest things lately. More to busy sleeping i guess. =.='
hmph, Pmr is not so far away like it used to be. If i'm right, it's only 6 weeks away. Gosh, so little time, so much work to do. Everything seems lining up to be done these days. A really tough year though,

Well, we faced our PMR trial. It was SCARY hard.
But still, until the results are finally out, i wont comment anything bout it. Besides, there is no point to nag about it since it is over. :'\
Tapi, bak kata senior, kalau trial susah, PMR nanti senang. Hehee~ AMIN AMIN AMIN!

Ouh, and by the way, i hope it is still not too late to wish "Ramadhan Mubarak everyone!" Barakallah fiikum.
Fasting days make us learn to be more 'sabar'. InsyaAllah, may all the muslims in the world be under the care of Allah. Especially those who are facing a terrible war with Laknatullah.

I'll end this post with a favorite song of mine.
Study the lyrics carefully, it means a lot. :')

but unfotunately, the main singer... err,.. kinda changed into...
search for it yourself,
=.='

hari meng-"Report". kad

2010-07-08T06:13:00.000-07:00

Result tadi dah dapat. Full. Kire yang betul-betul punyalah. And memang terkejut gilalah, sebab tengok report kad tuh mcm, eh? asal result macam lain dengan paper?
Ke salah tengok seblom neh?
Tapi sebab result better daripada apa yang 'disangka'. So, tadi hanya diam dan bersyukur. Mungkin seblom nih tersalah tengok lah tuh,, :P

Cikgu tak ada komplen apa-apa. **sangat terkejut, sebab sebelum nih pon cikgu memang eksyen konon nak cakap macam-macam lah bila parents datang, hahah**
So, kirenya semua berjalan lancar lah. Alhamdulillah,. Tak langsung jadik macam apa yang dimimpi semalam. hahah, terasa agak dungu lah sebab pagi-pagi dah cuak semua, siap tiup-tiup doa lagi.
Parents pon tak cakap, atau marah ke apa-apa, ;D

Kali nih terselamat. Tapi selamat-selamat pon, kena ingat~ trial dah dekat oi! Tak boleh maen-maen dah. Kena serious lepas nih!

Trial = 39 hari lagi!

phobia

2010-07-06T06:20:00.000-07:00

I cant believe that my animal phobia is still inside me. I can't even stand up to cats. =.='
It's embarrassing. Seriously, embarrassing.

That's only the cat part, not yet 'others'.
This morning when someone actually threw a rubber snake to me, i screamed as if it was the end of the world. Haish, this thing got to end somehow.

Not to mention when i encounter any cats, i'll automatically was set to scream and do a weird pose. And i cant really help it though.
All these things began to make me feel as if i'm some kind of an "animal-hater"?
eH, NO NO, not to that level, I wish. T^T

I think, I need a professional help!

p/s~ by the way, about the carnival, it went really great. Thanx to all the buyers and visitors. We collected donations more than we thought it will be. Lots of thanks! :D

curse u cicak! (carnival)

2010-07-02T13:30:00.000-07:00

Pasal cicak seekor, terus hilang mood nak tidur dekat bilik sendiri. N bawak diri untuk tido depan tv.
Tapi atas dasar kepenakutan original, tak jadi. Sebab tak ada orang kat bawah, =.='

Err, okeh. Dah.

Actually nak promote carnival smk seri keramat dekat sini.
Details;

@ smk seri keramat lah of course,
Ahad, 4 july 2010.
booth2 bukak dalam pukul 9 lebeh.
And ada banyak benda kat sana untuk dijual. Jadik kedatangan anda2 amat dialu-alukan,^^

Kalau boleh datang lah, sebab semua dana akan masuk ke tabung sekolah.
:)

p/s~ baru lepas tengok blog saiful bukhari. Hahahah, bukan nak kutuk ke apa. Tapi seriously, tak ke macam dia dah terlalu obses dengan anwar, untuk seseorang yang diliwat?
Tuh pon kalau betul lah dia memang kena,
;P

Pakai pelincir? WTH?

kkq!

2010-06-30T04:53:00.000-07:00

Soalan exam dah dijawab.
Sekarang tinggal tunggu result.

Soalan exam okelah. Tak nak komen apa-apa. Sebab takut nanti keluar-keluar result tak padan dengan apa yang dikomen. Hahahah

Tpi tak sangka part "menunggu-result" lagi seksa daripada time menjawab soalan. Sampai bawak dalam mimpi lagi tuh.
Haish, (T^T)

result oooouh result,
malas dah pikir pasal kau,

**exam Syafawi (Qiraat n hafazan) lagi 2 minggu,. kena focus! Nih je peluang terakhir,

Please pray for me,

29.6 - D-day

2010-06-21T04:45:00.000-07:00

The real and final exam of KKQ.
Got only 8 days to study and cover up all chapters and facts that had been thrown far far away from my mind. Yeah yeah, i spent the last 2 weeks holidays with the greatness of games and sleeping. Didnt touch any books at all, except at PREP. Holiday sakan lah katakan,

But err, either "KISAS" or goodbye-Kisas kinda depends on my result for this exam. If i mess up this one, then, my mom will be the first person to be dissapointed. Since she gets her hopes high for me to be in kisas next year.

Hope everything will be fine and great. InsyaAllah,
Wish mee luuuck~!
Fighting~!

?

2010-06-20T11:55:00.000-07:00

I wonder how it would feel like when reading someone else's diary and laugh about it so badly. Without even thinking a bit how that someone would feel.

I wonder how it feels like to be you.

cuti, exam, Prep, PMR & Family.

2010-06-05T01:38:00.000-07:00

Cuti dah start. Tapi tak rasa macam cuti pon. Sebab time cuti pon ada kelas tambahan lah, tusyen lah . Jadik rasanya memang tak boleh enjoy langsung.
Mid year exam baru habis. Dan huhhh, tak terkejut pon kalau result nanti sangat teruk, sebab rasanya memang tak boleh score yang ini.

Ouh ye,
Sekarang semua tengah sebuk-sebuk pasal soalan bocor.
Mana tak nya, kementerian yang buat soalan untuk mid exam nih. Jadik kalau sama negeri, samalah soalan dia.
Tapi satu yang pelek nya, dah dorang tahu soalan pon sama, tapi hari exam dorang wat laen-laen. Tak selaras. Ada yang exam dulu. So mana tak nya soalan bocor. Budak-budak pon bukanlah bodoh sangat. Lagipun bukan susah pon kalau nak contact-contact member from sekolah sebelah. Jadik rasanya cikgu-cikgu tak boleh lah nak salahkan students 100%.
Kenalah tengok sebab apa dulu sampai students boleh dapat soalan bocor. Jangan lah terus burst out marah-marah students.
***ngeheheh, tak tau lah teachers laen, tapi our teacher tak marah kiteorang langsung sebab dia paham situasi. ^.^

Pasal PREP.
Untuk 2 weeks cuti nih mama hantar masuk PREP. (Btw, 'prep' tuh nama tuition centre.)
Uncle (org yg lead prep tuh) cakap yang dorang memang buat style asrama. Create environment yang sesuai untuk study semua lah.
Semalam dah try pergi sekali. Secara sejujurnya agak boring. Test yang dia bagi pon agak pelek.
Tapi nih pon mungkin sebab tak biasa lagi. Tak apalah, lagipun untuk 2 weeks je. Bukan lama sangat pon.
But tak dinafikan lah prep people semua so nice. Walaupun baru kenal, tapi dah mesra gila. Terutama uncle. :')

PMR semakin dekat. Ketensyenan untuk dapat 9a pon semakin meningkat. 9A 9A 9A. huhhh..... T.T'
Sebabbb, kalau aku tak dapat, rasanya akan kecewa kan ramai orang. Terutamanya my parents. Kalau boleh memang tak nak kecewakan, sebab parents dah banyak sangat kecewa dengan anak-anak tahun nih.
Parents dah banyak buat untuk aku. Jadik kalau tak dapat happykan dorang, serious akan rasa bersalah gila,

Family?
semalam eldest brother ada buat bbq. Tapi sebab tusyen, jadik mama cakap tak boleh miss tusyen. Lagipon 1st time punya class, memang tak logik lah kalau tak datang.
Tapi rasa sangat sedeh, sebab mama cerita makanan yg di-bbq tuh sangat sedap. Even ada kambing kot semalam. hahahah,
And, kepada orang tuh, memang tak nak bertegur terus ke? Sebab the way u acted shows that a lot. And yeah,. saya sangat sangat makan dalam.

~~~~~

Even bears get tired and need a break.

remember september

2010-05-21T07:04:00.000-07:00

How the time passed away, all the trouble that we gave

And all those days we spent out by the lake

Has it all gone to waste? All the promises we made

One by one they vanish just the same

Of all the things I still remember

Summer's never looked the same

The years go by and time just seems to fly

But the memories remain

--DAugHtRy,,
-September

Although no words come out. No sign was shown. But the memories remain. Still remain and forever will be as our best memories together. :)

♥

p/s~ about only four months left until PMR. rakan-rakan, doakan saya. :)

missing in action!

2010-05-19T04:53:00.000-07:00

my pencil box is gone. Huhh.... Its been a week already, but still cant 'identify' yet either it was stolen or misplaced. But for sure, it went missing in school.
Really really hard living without it. Since everything is in there, :'(
And the saddest thing, i dont have any money to replace the pencil box AND the things inside it as well. Eh, nowadays pens are very cosy ma.

borrow money from parents?
Wahaha, that's the first thing that went through my mind. But since i had spent quuuuiiite a lot last saturday at wangsa walk, x')
so i dont have any guts to ask for some more. hehh...

Ouh, and great news,.! next week the mid-year exam is going to start. Hell yeah, of course i need a pencil box now!! Guess i really dont have any choice except;

NEED to Be nice with my brothers lah,

Lagipun, apa guna 4 abang kan ? :P

Second and last choice ;

ask money again from parents,, T.T

p/s~ Wah, "they" are right! Family is everything. Without them , i'm no one. x')

saya terfikir,

2010-05-02T06:08:00.000-07:00

Perlu ke jadik sombong untuk hidup sebahagia-bahagianya?
Perlu ke ? Perlu ke?
=.='

Allah sendiri pon tak sombong. Kenapa manusia biasa yang tak ada apa-apa nih pon nak sombong?

Selamat Tinggal April.

Bulan 4 dah pergi. Lepas nih kena face bulan 5 pulak. Pmr makin lama makin dekat.
Tapi saya rasa macam masa bulan 4 tak ada apa benda masuk dalam kepala.. T.T'
Terlalu over-enjoyed ke time bulan 4? Huhh,...

**Apapun, Rakan-rakan, doakan saya untuk PMR. ♥♥

back in reality, T.T

2010-04-22T06:14:00.000-07:00

This week is a hell of a time. Everything just keep on going worst and worst.
Plus for the time's' that i cant even make up my mind. Need to always be with my friends and ask for their help. And be a BIG burden for everyone. T.T

Plus plus, this week i felt like i loss a bestbestfriend.
Is he still the same? Or is it just me? wargh~!! i really dont know anymore.
But if everything is my fault, I'M SORRY. Seriously, i'm really really sorry. T.T

Then going on~ I got only 1 month to study for mid-year exam. That is , 1 month to cover the whole thing that i learned in form 1 and 2. Hell yeah~

To worsen things up~ my homeworks ,....... er, haven't even touch them yet. And there are so many of 'them'. Why why why???!!!!! T.T

Wargh, i dont know what's happening.

HELP ! ! !

another 5 month to go

2010-04-13T05:11:00.000-07:00

PMR makin dekat. Result UP1 tak memuaskan. Makin menurun... walaupun menurun hanya satu A, tapi still... #$%%^&.... =.='

Dan Lagi lima bulan kena tahan, dengan

homework setinggi bukit setiap hari
bebebebebelan dan kena marah setiap hari oleh semua warga pendidik, (bertujuan untuk meningkatkan lagi semangat, kata mereka.) T.T
purata tidur, satu hari hanya 4 jam
pergi sekolah, beg lebeh besa dari badan sendiri (entah bila smksk nak ada loker pon tak taulah) T.T
kedebaran hari-hari mengira hari untuk tunggu hari-hari (huh?)

Tapi tak apa. Bertahan Atikah, semua demi result. InsyaAllah, semuanya akan oke.
Rakan-rakan. doakan saya~! :')

p/s~ doa anda-anda akan amat dihargai,^^

gamba time kem bahasa arab, :D
dari kiri~ aisyah, lien, nina, aziatul, aishah amir, alya, n athirah :P

so so?

2010-04-07T06:01:00.000-07:00

Kawan-kawan, besok jom lawan mata sape paling lebam.

XD

Homework sangat banyak dan semua kena hantar besok. Sangat penat dan tension. Tak tahu lah sempat siap ke tak. Malam neh konfem tak tido lagi. (Tapi sempat lagi online). Argh naseblah,. actually saja je nak update blog dan share satu lagu neh.

Result exam yg latest sangat sangat sangat terok. Tak tahu macam mana bole turn out macam tuh. T.T
Of course, sangat sedeh dan frust yang amat. Terutama kat subject b.arab. Result macam #%^&*. Haish,.... T.T

~~~~~

Ouh yeah, neh lah lagu tuh, enjoy sama2 eh. ;P

woohoo

2010-03-15T16:16:00.000-07:00

(dah kuar dah pon cite neh)
Macam best. Dan macam kena tengok je XD

but how,
exam dah dekat
duet pon tade.
T.T

memang kena download je lah macam neh, x')

time time nak Pmr lah cite-cite 'macam-best' kuar an. haish, =.=

extra class-o

2010-03-15T08:00:00.000-07:00

yoohoo, pagi-pagi dah kena jeleng dengan cikgu sebab datang lambat extra class. Finelah, yang neh memang salah aku kot. Dah tau kelas pukul 8, nak jugak saja-saja wat muka tak besalah masuk kelas kul 8.15. Jadik, nak buat macam mana, memang padan muka lah kan.

Lepas tuh, after recess, dah kenyang, kena marah lagi, sebab masuk kelas lambat lagi. Yang neh tape, satu kelas kena. Jadik tak rasa apa sangat pon. XD

Huu ha hu ha, time Geografi, cikgu bagi paper. Serious bab tuh aku dah baca. Masa buat pon konfiden lah jugak. Tapi bila dapat tengok markah keseluruhan. Perrhhh, gila frust lah. Banyak gila salah. Kalau tak penah baca bab tuh, tadelah rasa sangat, neh baru baca dua hari lepas. Dalah bab form 1. Entah part mana yang aku aku boleh tak paham sampai salah banyak tuh pon tak tau lah. Tapi memang gila frust. T.T

Pastuh kena balek jalan kaki. Sangat panas kot Malaysia. Konfem boleh kurus lepas neh, x')

Balek rumah terdetik hati nak siapkan sijil yang dah berhabuk dah. Lepas 2 jam buat sijil tuh semua. Result langsung tak memuaskan. Busuknya printer. Time neh jugak dia nak wat hal. Memang saket hati betul. Kalau boleh memang dah wat bbq dah benda tuh. =.=

Adeh, tapi menda-menda dah jadik, apa boleh wat. memang kena let go jelah deyh. malas betol nak saket hati. nnt muka tak lawa. xP

Kesimpulan : Jangan wat extra class masa cuti. memenatkan dan memenatkan dan merosakkan mood untuk cuti.

p/s~ besok ada class lagi kot. T.T

zetsu,

2010-02-10T03:12:00.000-08:00

for now, almost everything is fine. Alhamdulillah, :')
There's not much to think about, except about my studies for sure.

other than that, i'm going for a vacation with my family this weekend. Heheheh, thanx to my dad for fulfilling my wish to see the sea. i'm so excited to go~~! :P

Ouh and now, currently trying my best to finish my comic. XD
hohoh, if it happen to be well and nice, i'll post it in here, but if not, aaaa... i guess i'll just keep it to myself. xP

Alrighty, thats all for now,
~adios guyios,
and wish me luck for my pmr. Pray for me~, (^.^)v

Zetsu~> my own private motivator. (hak cipta terpelihara ye,) :P

why me?

2010-01-23T09:04:00.000-08:00

one cannot act cool in every situation. One will only fool himself and everyone that trust in him if he do so.

by being cool all the time also have it own defects, i guess.

Some turns out to be a mess today. I accidentally found out a real dirty and sad secret. More like it felt down from hell and hit me. T.T
My eyes turns out to be "lebam" just because of that news. Seriously, i had never cried for someone else that much. Even for my mum or dad.
Yeah like i said. It is a dirty and somehow a sad secret. Wait, more to pathetic than sad.
And if my suggestion is right, there is only 4 person who knew about this, including me. And lets just keep it that way.
Ouh yeah, the bad news is that, the other 3 person dont have a clue that i found out about this. If they find do, i dont know what will happen and dont wanna try to know as well.

Its just three grown ups that are living in their own pathetic lives. They have their dirty secret. Really really dirty. Unfortunately, i found out about every inches of the secret and i got stuck in the middle of it. Accidentally! But, why me? why me? why me? T.T

i thought about it a lot, and decided to hold on to this secret without leaking it. Somehow, anyhow,

happy not-so new year

2010-01-20T04:21:00.000-08:00

huh, walaupon rasa nya dah sangat amat lewat, tapi still, happy new year! Moga korang dapat mencapai azam2 baru korang! xP

Orait, tahun baru dah masuk dah, dah jadik form 3 pon dah. Tua pon dah jadik dah. Lepas neh tinggal pmr je dalam list. hahah,
first-first masuk form 3 ingatkan boleh lah relax2 siket azam2 nak bahagikan masa lah semua2,. Last last semua hampeh je. Tiap-tiap hari tido depan tv, muka atas buku, siapkan homework. Buku2 pon semua penuh ngan aer liur je. Memang gila2 punya hardcore cikgu tahun neh bagi homework tak nak banyak lagi, sampai nak begosip pon dah tak berapa sempat dah. Jangan cakap maen game. Baca komik! Semua dah tak sempat dah. T.T
Boleh kena saket jantung kalau stay macam neh. huh... T.T'

Tapi nak tak nak kena lah jugak. Tahun lepas dah honeymoon gila2, tahun neh kena belaja gila2 rasanya. Pmr pon dah makin lama makin dekat. Umur pon makin lama makin singkat. xP

Haiyo, orait. Homework pon dah melambai-lambai dah tuh. So so, bye2. later,^^

ps~ doakan saya untuk pmr. :')

tetipah tetipu.

2009-12-26T10:28:00.000-08:00

Semalam, satu family semangat pergi jj. Shopping shopping untuk akhir tahun. Macam yang dah diagak dan ditunggu, semua tempat ada je signboard, "70% 50%" lah semua2. Sampai tahap mata dah bebueh tengok. :P

Lepas dah settle kat tempat t-shirt, berhijrah pegi kedai tropicana life pulak, untuk carik beg. Mula-mula, memang lah plan-plan dengan membe tak nak tukar beg untuk tahun depan. berjimat kumpul duet untuk beli buku. 'katanya~' (padahal niat sebenar, semua saving sebab nak beli komik.) xP

Tapi, aaa.. bila dah sampai kedai tuh, tetiba ayah tanya, "tak nak tukar beg baru ke?". Heheheh, aku pon apalagi, sebab nak kata tak nak. Kesian kat ayah, dia dah nak belikan sangat. :P
Jadik, dengan muka tersengih-sengih, pegilah pileh beg. Pileh punya pileh, mintak opinion ayah, mama ngan abang hensem yang jaga kedai tuh sendiri, pastuh last2 decide nak amek yang kaler purple.

Then, bila dah turun nak g makan tuh, baru teseda yang... ."eh, asal beg neh kaler biru? Abang kedai tuh sala amek beg ke?"
Huh huh, nak tak nak, my mom and dad suruh g tukar jap kat kedai tuh. But hahahah, yang part paling $%^&* nya, bila masuk kedai tuh balek. Dan lepas dicomparekan beg tuh ngan beg yang aku pileh tadi. Memang dah konfem ar kan. Beg yang sama. Rupanya-rupanya, beg tuh memang kaler biru pon, tapi sebab lampu kedai tuh kaler kuning-kuning, jadik sebab tulah kiteorg nampak dia kaler purple.

Masa tuh punyalah frust, tambah lagi kena marah ngan abg sendiri kat depan abang-abang hensem yg keje kat kedai tuh. Cis, memang jatuh gila lah kan maruah aku time tuh. Naseb baek abg hensem tuh tolong back-up.

Hahahah, jadik lepas neh, kalau korang pegi mana-mana kedai yang lampu dia kuning. Kenalah precaution awal-awal ye. Kalau nak beli barang, make sure betol2 tuh memang kaler yang korang nak. ;'P

cuti-cuti

2009-12-20T01:56:00.000-08:00

makin lama cuti, makin malas nak tules blog. Tapi surelah, makin rajin nak sambung tido.

My mom n dad dah selamat sampai daripada Mekkah. Alhamdulillah, :D
Setakat nih sejak dorang balek dah macam hilang dah rasa-rasa beban semua. Jadik memang dah happy-go-lucky balek lah. :P

Lagi berapa hari je lagi nak bukak sekolah dah. Bahang pmr pon dah boleh rasa dah sekarang. Tapi bukan makin rajin pon nak bukak buku. Nak tengok buku pon susah. Memang rasanya sekarang pon dah kena target dah result. Mama pon dah bagi talk dah semua-semua pasal masa depan. hahah, :P
Kalau ikut hati, nak je suruh kementerian cancelkan pmr tahun depan. menyusahkan je exam-exam neh, buat membazir kertas je. xP
Hoh, papepon, setakat neh oke lagi lah. Tade lagi dapat tekanan jiwa ke pape pasal pmr. :P

"Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyway."

think about it, :P

p/s~ Tahun baru dah dekat, kenalah rajin-rajin pikir apa azam baru. :P

respect

2009-12-13T01:13:00.000-08:00

Ouh, u had made it very clear.
u dont need me.
So, lets just do what we usually do without disturbing each other. And that includes everything.

Long story short.
U go ur way.
I go my own way.
no more wasting time helping me after this. Ouh, and sorry for being a burden? hm.. guess so. Real sorry for that. And again, sorry for standing in your way most of the time u want to go out and do what u want to do. After this, i promise u. I will try my best to not ask for any of ur help again. : )

And, sorry. i think i had mistaken u for someone i knew a long time ago. hahah, i guess that someone gone away already. Its just me that wont let go the fact that he is not here anymore. Again, sorry very very muchie. No more disturbance after this.

P.s~ cuti? Kali neh punya cuti tak rasa langsung macam cuti. hahahah,

an uncool diet,

2009-11-26T06:45:00.000-08:00

this was my breakfast, lunch and dinner for today. (It is an instant noodle by the way,)
it doesnt looks that great, but the taste was ok. ^^
And i ate this because i spent my money for two comics that was actually the money i should be using to buy today's breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Yeah yeah, i wasnt thinking when i bought the comics. (T.T)
Talking about 'think before u act'. It is easier said than done. xP

bubur goreng. :P

2009-11-24T05:04:00.000-08:00

It was 4 pm. and i got pretty hungry~
It was hot outside, so, kinda lazy to go out and buy some food. :P
(Actually, i was lazy to take a bath.) xP

I went to the kitchen and tried to find something that i can cook. Without end up by burning it of course. So, i found this perencah adabi nasi goreng cina. Since that's all i got, so, i started to cook the rice first. The rice turned out to be 'almost-bubur' but yeah.... as if i cared.

I cooked and cooked. Then after 10 or 15 minutes, after it was ready to eat. I ate lah~ The smell of it really nice.
I never taste anything like it in this world. It was like~ WOW! So horrible, terrible, bubble. (eh?)
Hahahah, it was the worst thing i had ever tasted. xD

Hehh, what can i say. I do "have the talent" in cooking. :P

p.s~ i miss my mum's cooking. (T.T)

old us

2009-11-22T07:01:00.000-08:00

" no matter what happen, family first. "

Hmm,.... what happened to that statement? :'(

Being alone is not that bad. But, feeling that u're alone is what hurts the most.

Before, i dont mind waiting, for 1 or even 4 hours? Because somehow, i know that someone will actually come. But now, when i am waiting, i'll feel something wrong, i will have doubts whether that someone is really coming or not....

Where is the old you?

The old us? :'(

bad luck, carelessss

2009-11-18T08:20:00.000-08:00

Today i drank a milk without realizing that it had already been expired for two days ago. A bit taste of it, and i vomited less than 5 second. Luckily i let it go in the sink instead on the surau's floor. It was a close-call, *sigh*
But the milk was not so bad. Seriously, it actually tasted like yogurt but more sour-er. And the best part, it made me felt like there was a cat scratching in my stomach. It hurts really much. A good reminder though, after this, don't buy any expired milk. =,='
"and eh, boycott 7e for selling expired milks. " xD

Then, yesterday, i knocked my head in the bus. It was not that bad, but quite shame since some were looking. T.T

Ouh, another thing, 3 days ago, i met a big yellow snake and a parrot at carrefour. I guess there was an exhibition by that time. Wow, just my luck eh, =,='
Since i was too scared with the snake, i almost screamed and i did my karate poss when the abang asked me to try touch the parrot. Hoh, everyone was looking and it was damn embarrassing. And believe me, my karate poss was so so aaaa... weird? =,='
And i have been thinking to find a way to get rid of my animal phobia. But still couldn't find a way. T.T'

2 weeks ago, i went to nina's house, and i knocked my head. The knock sound was really loud. And i got a
'telur' on my head for 3 days. And it hurt like hell, but to 'cover' my macho-ness in front of nina and her family, i acted like it was nothing by that time. xD

Heh, careless or bad luck?
Aaaa, i dunno, but i guess it was both.
(o.O)

p's~ Ouh yeah, i got my final exam results already. All of it, hahah. And it was not that bad. Can still bear it. xD

sugar high

2009-11-06T07:10:00.000-08:00

huhh....final exam is over. Woohoo, what a relieve. :D

The school holiday is getting nearer and nearer, seriously, can't wait to get awaay from school. xD
After that can sleep all day without worrying about any homeworks anymore. woohoo2,
But also can't wait for my results, surely i wont be laughing when i get them. =.='

By the way, a big thanx to cikgu esa for giving me a chance. But about the singing thing. A really really weird thing to ask for. =.='
I only did it because i need those marks. Cause i rather die than to sing in front any of my teachers after this. This is the first and last and it was damn embarrassing. (T.T)
But err... the good thing about it,.. i got some marks for the drawing thing, :]

Ouh and tomorrow, since the final exam is over, i'm going to start operation getting rid of the extra fats. Heheh, wish me luckk, ^^

~~~~~

Lesson learned today;

don't talk behind people's back cause you might not get a chance to ask for their forgiveness.

-cikgu anith (^.^)v

final exam punya cerita

2009-11-04T07:40:00.000-08:00

ngeheheh
exam kali neh, aku tak confident langsung boleh score.
kalau takat lulus insyaAllah kalau ada rezeki bolehlah kot. :P

Tapi kalau nak dapat straight a tuh... angan-angan jelah jawabnya,
sebab masa tengah beperang ngan sejarah pon macam nak nanges je tembak soalan-soalan tuh. Tuh belom masuk cite science lagi. Semua hentam ikut teori buat sendiri je. xD

Geografi pon, semua aku jawab ikut logik alam.
bm, tatabahasa yang aku reka sendiri. Bi, ikut suka aku je nak letak grammar macam mana. xD

Bahasa arab hari jumaat. kh besok. sivik pon besok. Seni pon besok.
ARGH, tape, sivik jawab ikut logik. Alah, sivik bukan masuk pmr pon. xP
Seni jangan lah sebut. Hampeh aku nak baca nota yang cikgu esa bagi. Buat pon tak. xD

jadik rasanya memang tipis harapannya lah kan nak dapat straight a tuh. Kalau takat dalam mimpi malam neh bolehlah kot.
Tulah, sape suruh belaja semua last-minit. xDD

tapi tape.
pmr lambat lagi. *(saja nak tambah konfiden diri.)*

xD

tett... i support last-minute study. :P

2009-10-29T07:31:00.000-07:00

Orait, who said that last-minute study is no good at all ? Seriously, it is not true.
Sometimes although you did revised the subject 1 hour before the exam started, but if luck is by ur side, who knows, maybe the exam's question will come out just exactly what you had read. xP
*i'm saying this because i had experienced this myself, twice.* xD

Ouh oke, the final exam and also, mom and dad are going to haji is tomorrow,
hoh, wish me luck for my exam guys, :D
I'm actually targeting for a good result, insyaAllah. xP

And wish my mum and dad for their 44 days of journey, :')

p.s~ good luck for other students for the final exam~

ouh. so in the gay version ah?

2009-10-20T08:00:00.000-07:00

Oke first, guys, don't misunderstood the gay word. Go look for the word in a dictionary if u don't understand what i really meant. xD

ouh yeah, back to the main, actually for these 3 4 days, i'm sooo in the gay mood. Don't know why, but yeah, my marah marah mood, my tension tension mood, can say that i hardly been in there now. It's like they had said bye-bye to me.
But it's good lah, since to be a cool person like my abang is my dream. And the kind of cool i mean is not like when u're wearing expensive cloth or some sort of things like that, it's just when ur mood is hardly change and everything around u seemed so calm and great. :P

But err... since everything went well for now, so i guess there's nothing to worry about, maybe that's why i'm such in a gay mood. :P

And about provoking, don't do that, since it is such a gay-mood-killer. :'(
Even if you felt someone had almost kill your cat or someone wants to push you from 30th floor. Dont provoke them. Just do the slow-talk lah. No need to stress yourself and anyone that is around you. ;P

I meant what i said. xD

2009-10-13T06:34:00.000-07:00

Like i said.

i'm not going to give up. i'm not going to give up. i'm going to get free lunch again.

Hell yeah i repeated it twice so that's mean i'm really serious now about this. xD

Prepare ur money guys cause i'm going to eat free lunch again tomorrow. With your money. xP
Hohoh, this study group thingy is getting fun since it also involves money. :D

p.s. Sape suruh korang cabar. Kan aku dah terpacak kat pss tuh pukul 8 tepat. xD

p.s (part2) . Ouh yeah, and sape suruh korang lambat datang. Muahahahhahahh xD

**Sorry for this weird post. This is just a normal side-effect from lack of sleep. Only 3 hours sleeping can really get you to be a hyper-lunatic. Go go try it. xD

thing to think.

2009-10-12T13:21:00.000-07:00

Well, it's 4 am now. I did planned to stay up late only until 2 to watch Supernatural, yeah, talking about a major fan of it. But the 2 am became 4 am. Since i did just sahor sekali. Ouh, ha'a, i'm fasting tomorrow.

And the best part, tomorrow i need to be at school sharp at 8 for the study group thingy. Or else i'll be spending my pocket money for those two, ain n aiman. Ouh, we made a deal, who's late and he/she will need to pay. Literally pay. Pay for food. With real money. Hell yeah that's a weird and lame deal since it involves money. And i'm actually so so pokai right now. (T.T)

Ouh wait, there's something i want to state here. (Although it almost had nothing to do with the post.)
But urh.... According to my mum~

The more you gain your hateness towards people, the more eviler you'll get. And the more people you hate, the more jahat-er you are.

So, alright people. Stop hating each other and keep the world peace and clean. Peace and clean i tell ya. :P

action kamen the third. :D

2009-10-11T09:59:00.000-07:00

Ouh yeah, i just got to know that my mom and dad's flight to haji is currently on the same day i'll be taking my final exam. Hahah cool tak cool tuh? Dalam banyak-banyak hari, hari tuh jugak laa terpilih. :P

The final exam and the day mama and dad will be going is getting nearer and nearer. Hell yeah of course i'm getting nervous day by day. =,='
I bet it's going to be hard living without mom and dad even if it is going to be only for 44 days. But i guess i will be eating maggi lah kot for a while there. Since me and my brothers can't cook. :P

And about the final exam, i already start studying. Study Sejarah lagi tuh.. Muahahhahhaha xP

new book or new moon?

2009-10-10T09:23:00.000-07:00

Arh... people always say that if u got problem, then just open a new comic lah. Eh, sorry, not comic, book. Open a new BOOK. xP

But but, what if, the persona is not ready yet to open a new book. Instead, she wishes to herself soo much that she could just stay in the book that she is staying now. Because she is afraid that if she jump off to a new book, then, a new problem will occur. But isn't life is just like that? eheh? =,='
Heesh, it seems that the more i tried to explain, the harder it gets to understand. So, i guess it's better for me to just shut up. xD

Ouh yeah, let's end this 99th post with;

Happy birthday Mozek, Or Nama glamournya, Muzakkir Khalid. :P
Thanx bebanyak thanx sebab banyak tolong selama neh. Especially time dengar2 probz tuh. Long story pendek, thx for being so so understanding,^^

raya's day out. (heh?)

2009-10-06T08:46:00.000-07:00

Last Sunday was quite a blast. :P
Although its quite late to go round-round-rumah, but since we are still in the month of syawal, 2ba decided to do it. Heheheh, like usual, we collected duet raya quite a lot. And the set of route was quite cool to me as well.

First the convoy started at hafiz's house, then aiman's, fadhirul's, nina's, then my house. We actually walked from house to house. hahahahah, they said it's quite tiring but the semangat raya is still there, so there's not much of fuss and complaining about sakit kaki from anyone. xD
After the eating and lepak-ing in my house, we went to ukay perdana by bus. The first house that we attacked was aisyah's, then aziatul's, syerah's, and lastly, zaidi's.

6.30 pm and we decided to go home.
We waited for bus quite long enough to make everyone pissed off and started doing weird things at the bus-stop. xD
The whole day was really funny and currently the best raya we had faced together so far. And also, the coolest part was when in the bus lah. The pak cik drove it as if it was a roller-coaster. xD

Those who were not with us that day, fadhli (balek kampung), nad (pergi kajang), siti aisyah (went for beraya with family). Urm, i guess that's all. u guys missed quite a lot. But, there's an album for the pictures that were taken the whole day. I already uploaded it in my myspace, so go lah and see it. :D

p.s. to sape2 lagi yang nak copy gambar-gambar seksi korang, bagi usb kat aku okeh. xP

si baju biru punya cerita

2009-10-03T10:34:00.000-07:00

Macam biasa, bila ada yang meng-announce-kan perjumpaan akan diadakan dengan guru, lagi-lagi guru disiplin. Semua rakan-rakan baju biru akan berpeluh sampai basah semua tempat. Ouh, lumrah lah tuh.

Desakan, persoalaan, marahan (is there even a word?) ditujukan. Dan macam biasa, banyak jugak soalan itu soalan ini keluar dan ditujukan bertubi-tubi, sebijik macam machine-gun snake dalam game metal gear solid 3 yang baru aku habis main semalam, game tuh tadelah susa sangat kalau pilih very easy mode, tapi mencabar jugak lah bila lawan the sorrow, smpai kena try 3 4 kali baru lepas. eh, Ok, dah2, tutup pasal game. Yang pasal soalan tuh, aku jawab dengan cool je, tanpa memang tak terbelit lidah, dan menjawab dengan sejujur habis "yeah right. =,='"

Ramai yang kata, ouh, saya faham dengan perasaan kamu semua, saya faham kamu semua penat. Faham faham. Itu je yang aku dengar sepanjang tahun neh. Dan sekarang, meh sini aku pulak bagitahu ape yang aku faham yang korang faham sebenarnya, "heh?".

Perkataan amanah, tanggungjawab, wajib menjalankan tugas. Selalu amat diingatkan kepada semua rakan yang berbaju biru oleh ketua petang yang memang kurang berguna rasanya. Jadik rasanya perkataan tuh dah memang boleh sampai terbawak-bawak dah pon dalam semua mimpi.

Semua tau disiplin pelajar sekarang sangat teruk.
Dan, cubalah faham bahawa semua manusia yang pakai baju biru neh memang semua sedang bermati-matian menjalankan tugas dan sambil itu, mengjalani rawatan menambah ke-tension-an secara free. Yeah beb, cuba try bagitahu sape yang tak tension bila tengok hari-hari orang meludah ke bawah dari tingkat 3. Bila tengok orang baling sisa makanan dekat muka (naseb baek selalu tengok matrix. Jadik sempat elak. Kalau tak, memang seyes bole bawak gado tuh.)

Jadik, pihak atasan, maaflah seandainya kami memang dianggap tak berguna. Kami dah cuba yang terbaik. Kalau tak pehati lagi. Apa kata anda je lah pakai baju biru lepas neh. xD

Luahan rasa daripada salah seorang si baju biru. Maaflah kalau terlebih dramatik. ;P

mum, dad, sibs, cousinss??

2009-10-02T22:30:00.000-07:00

Yesterday my mum got the results for the haji thing. They can go, i mean like the letter was written like this;

"Anda diterima untuk mengerjakan ibadah haji. Sila kembalikan borang ini besertakan jawapan."

Ouh, that's a real great news. Actually for all this time we were all expecting for that answer since they said that mom's and dad's chances to get to go there is 90%. So aaa,, we are grateful.^^
Okeh, the first part is a great news after all. But this second part made me saket perut when i think about it.

Who am i going to live with when they are there? Hahahah, if u ask my mum, she is also worrying about the same thing. Of course, we had thought about this thing. But errr... before this, we had never been parted for so long. hahahah, *weird btol bila budak besa cakap gini.*
Big probability that i'll stay with my cousin in s'pore or with my brothers in here, err... my house lah. Ouh wait, or even i might be staying in cheras, my eldest brother's house.

Here's the thing. I really really really want to just stay here. in my house, with my brothers. But the main thing is, if they are out, maybe hanging around with their friends, then i'll be alone in this house, so, that's what bother mom. To me it's ok. But my mum keep repeating the same thing over and over, "mana boleh duduk sorang. Kan bahaya tuh. lagipon takkan hari-hari nak makan maggi nanti."
Yeah, my mum does have a point there. T.T

Then, the second choice, with my cousin, ouhoh, i would love to stay with her. But if i stay there, then i can't hang around with my friends here for some time lah kan,. That's the part yang tak best. T.T
But my cousin is cool. Well, we are quite close after all. ^^
Ouh yeah. And remind me again, how am i suppose to go to s'pore? And without mum and dad. =,='
So, the possibility to go there is getting sikit-er and sikit-er.

ouh, staying in cheras. :)
It's ok. But the prob is. I'm going to stay alone for the whole pagi and petang, since my brother, sis-in-law need to go to work. The security there is tight, so nothing to worry about that. And my brother said if i stay there, i can online the whole day. He wouldnt mind. woohooo~~
But then to think of it. Tak boring ke duduk sorang-sorang lama-lama gitu? T.T

hoh, so you see.... it's a hard decision to make. My mum and dad said that it's up to me where to go. And that's making it's harder and harder to choose. xD

p.s. eh, without realizing it. I wrote a complete karangan. xD

2009-09-27T17:25:00.000-07:00

Bagusnya kalau...................

aku tak payah pegi sekola hari neh. (T.T)

sambung tido.
sambung maen game.
sambung makan.
xD

dalah malam neh tusyen.

hu ha hu ha

konfem tak sempat makan balek sekolah, teros pegi tusyen. =,='

*heh, tade keje pagi-pagi buta buat post macam neh. xP

eh. p.s.~ Beg yang aku target dah success dibeli. Alhamdulillah. :P

enjoy ur raya while still can

2009-09-26T10:00:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is going to be sunday, and tomorrow tomorrow will be going to be the day that i need to send my homeworks. Since its monday, i, eh no, all students need to go to school already. Cuti raya dah habis dah. =,='

And the best part, i haven't even start doing any of my homeworks yet. And only one day left. Hell yeah for sure i wont finish them.
I told my mum about this, she wasnt even shocked at all. She said that she knew already, since i didnt touched my books at all along this cuti. Except kkq's book (Takut kena marah, sebab tuh hafal awal2). xD
I admit that i was too 'enjoyable', well, it is raya though. =,='

This raya is still cool. ;)

although i am a lil frustrated that we spend our raya here only. But still, i tried my best to understand what's going on. And my family, thanx for lighting up this raya, especially abbad,^^
Friends also, yang ramai-ramai datang hari tuh pon. Next year come again ye. Meriah kan rumah. :P
The "convoy" that 2ba is planning is still in planning. xD
Maybe next week baru kiteorang round.

selamat hari raya. :)

2009-09-22T09:53:00.000-07:00

Selamat hari raya , :)

maaf zahir dan batin. dari kesalahan yang paling kecik pon sampai yang paling besar lah ye. Bese lah, manusia kan tak lari dari kesilapan. Kalau ade gak yg memang tak ngaku dia penah wat sala tuh, tak tau lah, maybe dia bukan manusia lah kot. Spesis baru agaknya. XD

Ouh, dan bila poket dah macam kepenuhan sampai dah tade tempat nak letak duet raya tuh, don't worry lah, poket aku always kosong je lagi untuk tompang. Jadik, ingat-ingat lah ye aku sepanjang raya neh. XP

ahha, sebelum lupa nak cakap, mak jemput datang umah, jadik jemput lah ramai-ramai makan kueh yang aku buat. Eh, tak, salah, beli beli, bukan buat. Kueh yang aku beli. :P

Jadik pape pon, ;

Pergi raya rumah cikgu Seri,

Terjumpa harun time on da way;
Selamat Hari Raya Aidiltri,

Ampun maaf zahir dan batin weh!

p.s. Pantun gila superb laa. Kalau wakil sekolah neh mesti menang. XD

simple, starving to be safe

2009-09-13T07:01:00.000-07:00

Lately I've been thinking so strangely about the clouds,
and how they seem to slowly fade away, yeah.
Maybe someday we will find a way to disappear.
Just me and you on silver lining dreams.

Oh, how could I survive without your love,
and the hope you bring?
Oh, even when the sky is falling down, I know I have you, and it's all I need.

Lately I've been hoping you can stay with me,
And I could hold you close 'til the end of time, yeah.
Maybe someday we will grab some change and run away,
but for now I'll learn to say goodbye.

Oh, how could I survive without your love,
and the hope you bring?
Oh, even when the world is breaking down, I know I have you, and it's all I need.

Oh, she is my everything.
Oh, she is all I need.
Oh, (yeah) she is my everything.
Oh, she is all I need.

Oh, how could I survive without your love,
and the hope you bring?
Oh, even when the world just falls apart, I know I have you, and it's all I need.

P.s~ i LOVE it. :D

ntah la, =.='

2009-09-11T18:49:00.000-07:00

about this coming raya....
it keeps on bugging me in some way. I don't know what kind of way, but some kind of way lah. T.T

And really, i do feel something weird when it is decided that we are only going to celebrate it here, our house. Cause it is the first time though. And it's a real disappointment when i already know that i wont be celebrating it with my cousins. T.T

Hmph, maybe i should just grow up. Well, should i?

But then, Raya still far away. Also, maybe i should be focusing more on the way i spend my Ramadhan than to keep myself thinking about raya. Since ramadhan is the bulan rahmat. :)

But aaaa, to tell the truth, my great-great spirit for raya had gone away already. T.T

"torchlight" for life

2009-09-09T21:25:00.000-07:00

Let only light

Be your guide

As wisdom be your friend

And will as your shadow

Never is not a word

And let it just be your foe

Don't learn to be a coward

None less than enemy it must so

Follow your heart

But still, use your head

It will turn right

If you are not afraid

Don't be blind

Stay strong with your line

If you set it right in mind

Everything will turn out fine

-atikah,^^

p.s, good luck in trying to understand it. hee~ xD

joke's impact. hohoh

2009-09-08T08:42:00.000-07:00

Sometimes people do say what ever they want. Right?
Ouh, surely, i have nothing against that. But when the things that they say, actually can leave a great impact to someone else. That just seems not right to me.

Youho,. actually, what i'm trying to say is, watch whatever we are going to say, not what we already said. Cause the subj that we use, might leave a 'deep-full-free-hurting-package-inside-the-heart' to someone.
And also, sometimes you might think you are joking to someone about something quite harsh, ouh, maybe for the first time that you joke like that, maybe they still can accept it as a joke. But when you repeat it over and over again and more worse if it gets some involvement from a third person. Things might not turned out to be "just a joke" though.
And it might turn out to be something serious and can also leave a greatly effect to someone.

So please please please, if you want to joke, don't joke on something that have possibility to hurt someone. Because that is SO NOT COOL. :)

This is just a reminder oke. Don't take it personally, cause it is a reminder for myself as well. Either you want to take it as advice or read it and laugh about it just like that, it's up to you. ^^

'sampai lepas raya'

2009-09-02T10:13:00.000-07:00

Ouh, tadi rasanya aku termerajuk time tusyen. Hahahah,
Mula-mula dengar berita yang cikgu akan "awaayyy" untuk dua minggu. Hmm.. sampai lepas raya. Oke, sejujurnya, benda tuh dah boleh buat aku terus hilang semangat untuk satu hari.
huh,

sampai lepas raya? kalau nak tambah konfiden kat diri sendiri, bolehlah kata 'sampai lepas raya tuh; alaaa kejap je, pejam celik pejam celik, dah lepas raya dah'. Tapi kalau ikut logik akal dan teori yang aku pike masa merajuk tadi pon, memang akan lama pon 'sampai lepas raya tuh'. Menangis lah aku tunggu. (T.T)

hmph, part yang paling buat aku nampak merajuk tetiba tadi. Betol-betol lepas dapat tau yang 'cikgu akan awaaaay~' boleh pulak dorang kenakan aku. deyh2, Sebenarnya memang lah tak penah kesah pon n tak penah aku amek serious pon pasal tuh, sebab memang setiap hari Rabu, konfem aku dah tau pon yang dorang akan kenakan aku. Tapi kali neh laen sket, aku terus jadik diam dan terus buat hal aku sendiri. Hahahah, emosi terumbang-ambing time tuh, nak buat macam mana, xD

Tapi korang, serious, aku tak kesah lah, dan mungkin, tadi aku memang merajuk, tapi hakikatnya, aku tak merajuk dgn korang pon, cuma dengan benda laen. hahahah
N sori sangat amat yang teramat sori sebab diam tadi, aku diam mungkin sebab terkejut kot, terkejut dengan ke'away'an cikgu. (T.T)

Yelah,sampai lepas raya?
lama tuh weyh~!

listen. please?

2009-08-31T08:27:00.000-07:00

It hurts when people misunderstood what you actually meant. Seriously, it truly hurts. And the main cause for that to happen is just because they didnt listened to anything that you said, yeah, since they only think you as a useless rubbish that only talk shits.

Listen for a while. Is it that hard?
Ouh yeah, and you didnt even tried.

It felt like you've been stabbed so many times, again and again, when people that you truly care for are telling you that all you said is a bunch of lies. You guys conclude me that easily, but do u even tried to put ur self in my shoes by the time u smashed me and throw those harsh words? Do u even know how painful is it to actually be in my place?

i know what i said, and also, i know that u misunderstood me. I tried to tell u. But u didnt even left me a space to say something. I did spoke something by that time, but u treated me as if i am not even there. U showed to me that i am nothing to u. And that's ok, cause i realized already what i am and who i am. I am only someone that can give you nothing at all. Just like a burden that u need to carry all this time.

It really hurts i tell you. And hey, i know that i did make a mistake. And for that, i'm sorry. I really am.

But really, am i just like u said so? A useless creature?

balek kmpg

2009-08-30T12:32:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i did felt a lil jealous with my friends when they said they are going "balek kampung" and do stuffs there that most of them we cant do here, in kl.

Well, i do wish i have a kampung. Literally, i do have, but since both side of my grandparents passed away already, so... even if we go back there, we'll have to stay at the hotel instead a real life kampung. (T.T)
That what happens if we go to Penang lah (my father's side of the family). But different thing happens if we go to singapore (my mom's side). We'll stay at my aunt's house if we go there, and since we are closer to my mom's side, so usually we'll celebrate our raya at s'pore.
But can you imagine spending raya at singapore? hahahah, the situation there SO not like where my friends are spending their raya. You cant even play mercun there, or else u might end up in the jail. hahahah
There were also times they'd even told me that they went for swimming in river with their cousins there. yahaaaaaa~~ so so jealous, with all the fun times that they are having. (T.T)

yeah, i do miss the real kampung. Different than here.
i still remember a bit memories of my late-grandfather when he was still alive. hmm... but still, i cant get the perfect picture though, since i was still a little kid back then. And the last time i met him was like 7 years ago.
And hey, i am missing my late-grandfather now. :'(

bazaar

2009-08-27T11:30:00.001-07:00

It's been a long time since i last went to one. Yeah, it was a almost a year ago, since the bazaar only exist in Ramadhan, *as far as i know*

Ouh, and yesterday i went to one. At first, i don't know which stall should i go first, since there's a looooot of people there. And also, it's quite hard to decide which food should i buy since there's too many of them. (O.o)

I went with my dad, so, it's easier, since he can choose them.
But the weird part was...
We end up being a lil clueless there, since he was also getting confused either to buy this or that, to go there or here. hahahah,

But we managed to return home with about 8 plastic-bags. My mom was quite shock since there were only the three of us, and those foods were quite a lot for three people. xD

Tapi sebab tak nak membazirnya, we did finished it all. Licin semua pinggan. xP
And yeah, the risk of being fatter this raya is getting bigger.

heh, can't wait for raya. :)

lame,

2009-08-26T09:06:00.000-07:00

Accept the fact that 'some people just don't bother to care for ur feelings at all.'

If u are saying the statement above is wrong. I guess u just have to wake up already. Even if u are from nirvana (*ouh, who cares*), u just have to admit that the statement is true. Sorry to say this, but if u really really think that all people in the whole world really do care and need to care for ur feelings. I prefer u to go and dive in the sea.

Call it evil? Nolah, it's just reality. Accept it, believe it, feel it. xD

distracted?

2009-08-23T06:31:00.000-07:00

Hm,,, i don't know what i'm facing now actually, or even what i'm feeling right now. It's way waayyy too complicated. Recently, i got to know that all this time i was hoping on something that... doesnt even exist?
Hmph, it was painful at first to except the real fact, but now i guess i'm quite oke with it. Thanx to my friends. ^^

Now i'm resetting myself back again. Ouh, and i am absolutely serious bout this. Well... i'm going to focus more and extra more to stuffs that is actually important? But still, about the other stuffs, like anime, games, and comics, i'm not seeing them as a distraction to me at all. Yeah, they are not distractions, they are friends. xD

And about the homeworks that i got from school. (Since it's holiday). Yahaa, i guess the teachers can't bare to see us rest even for a while eh? (T.T)
It's even taller than the notes that i got from my tuition. Really, it's too much. (T.T)

ramadhan. :)

2009-08-21T10:31:00.000-07:00

ouh, it's Ramadhan already lah. :)
i wish to all muslims out there;

Selamat Menyambut Bulan Yang Penuh Berkat. Dan Semoga diberkati Allah selalu.
-amin-

Happy fasting guys~!
:D

history class :P

2009-08-19T10:03:00.000-07:00

It was history class, i looked behind me and it was~!
wow~!
Everyone's eyes were about to travel already? Actually mine too, but since i sat just in front of the teacher's face, so, i can't join them. Unless i prefer to get a free-of-charge-extra-special-spicy-slap from her.

I looked at ain, (the alien that sits right beside me in class, xP) , she was trying as hard as she could to not sleep. And, she was mumbling about the teacher to herself. xD

Well, maybe 2 of 10 people will say that they love history more than they love their husband.

but for me, hmm... history lesson can really turn out to be many things. fun, burden? But mostly not-so-fun lah to me since usually i'll force myself to complete the notes each night, unless if i want a .. special gift from the teacher. xP

But hey, dont take this wrongly, i admit that i dont really like that subject. But it doenst mean that i'm not in it at all. And also, since i promised to my mum that i'll try to raise my low marks that i scored in history subj from the last exam, so, gotta try and be strong to not sleep in the next next next next next history classes. ;P

p/s~ orang yg tido td~ jeles btol deyh. taulah korang nya tmpt ddk strategik. T.T'

w-what?

2009-08-14T10:58:00.000-07:00

Hoh, a strange feeling in-coming~~~!

Sometimes, not everything you can just spill out from your mouth just like that. Or else, u will be called as a "mulut celupar" person.

But then, mix feelings come and go deep down inside. It's like a roller coaster that is waiting to explode. Think that i should say it, but maybe if i spill it, it could make things worst. But i end up keeping everything inside and just try to act like nothing happened. And acting that way... make me feels.. weird somehow. That's for sure. T.T

haish,
What to do? what to say? or should i just keep myself in silence like what i am doing now?
sorry, but i don't know anymore. I just dont know. T.T

ouh, maybe this is the side-effect caused by getting too excited to wait for this raya. Hmmm,... maybe~ who knows? xP

ily no more. hahah

2009-08-13T05:20:00.000-07:00

Ouh, feels like it's been a long time since i posted anything on my blog. Rasa macam da setahun da. xP

hmhm, nothing new in my life, everyday is just like any other normal days. Ouh, but there was something. Not that it's something big. But since it's not even a small thing, so i guess,... a medium size thing lah.

Oke oke, i got my result for my last exam, ouh n, already got it since last two weeks but actually not planning to type anything bout it here, since it turns out to be not that good. hahah

Well, there are some people that said i never act serious in everything i do and that includes in my studies as well. Except when i am on-duty lahh, in that period of time i am serious. I have to actually.
But when i'm off-duty~ wahahahhahaha , only my friends know. xD

But think in a positive way.. if i am being too serious in everything i do and also, serious in my studies 24/7. Wouldn't then i should be call as a cyborg instead of a human being?
Cause acting serious all the time sounds really really really weird to me. So, how can i be and act like that?

My family and my friends prefer the way i am now rather than i'm acting like someone who have no feelings, have to be in serious-mode even when i'm eating, and study study study all the time. Aiyoo~~

Ouh and, now, i decided, my first priority after this is going to be my family, friends, study and anime. That's all. hahah,
study and anime? y?
ouh, anime, i guess i don't really have to answer that since it is important in some human's life. Without it, who knows what could happen. xD

And study~ because next year i am going to face Pergi Mandi Ramai-ramai (PMR) so, i guess i should focus more on my studies since i'm hoping to go to any cool boarding school after that. :P
But heyy, when i said that i'm going to focus more on my studies, it doesnt mean that i'm going to stuck with books 24/7 deyh. I need to keep on living my life too. xD

ps* sori tajuk mcm @#$%^&*. Dah tade idea nk tules tjuk apa, nk buat mcm mna. :P

a gift. :)

2009-08-07T11:03:00.000-07:00

If u think that it is a burden.
It is a burden then..,
But if u think it is a gift.
Then it will always be as a gift.
Well... not every gift that u accept turn out to be what u want right?
So,... a gift also can be something that is... aaaaa.... bad?

And 'some part of this world' might be throwing u some shoes to ur face right now.
Dodge them instead of accepting them,
Cause maybe, just maybe,...
u might get a chance to throw them back at those 'part of the world'.
So, don't give up and just stay strong.
:)

sorry sorry T.T

2009-08-03T08:06:00.000-07:00

hMmm.. how on earth can i even forgot my brothers beday. T.T

27 July, i forgot my first brother's beday. -forgot to wish even though he called me just because i didnt even text him that day. But i still didnt got the clue by that time. Until my mom remind me bout it on the next three days- T.T
and today, i forgot my third brother's beday.
T.T

sorry~~
i felt really really guilty when he asked me 'where's the beday cake?'
But then he laughed and he said that he was joking.
But then.. after 5 minutes baru teringat. Sorry for the pending moment yea. xD
aaaaaaaa sorry2, i didnt forgot about it on purposed deyh. it was .... er.... something that slipped off my mind somehow. seriously.. sorry~!!!!!!
T.T

Ouh skrang da byk btol benda yg telupa. Mcm mna neh? T.T

end. no more.

2009-08-01T22:21:00.000-07:00

ya haa~ seriously, i dont know what to think or even what to do right now.
Currently looking to the computer without thinking anything also can bring a really great pleasure to me now. haish. Maybe most of u wont understand or will think "what in the world is she writing?!".

And yeah, i also dont know what i am writing right now. It feels like everything in my world seems to sank down to the bottom of earth just like the titanic. And yeah, i'm not planning for not letting it be. T.T

I'm not hating myself. Or am i?
well, even if i am. y would i?
ouh, maybe just because the damage that i created to myself and my life. T.T
hm, maybe i am hating myself.
And weirdo weirdly, i dont know where to start to blame myself.

Well, if anything bad happens, i blame myself. I dont know why. But usually that's what bother me the most. erk, i dont really want to understand the situation right now. Everything seems like spurning around and around and just keep making things to be more and more complicated. I just want to stop. Stop from waiting answers from someone like a total idiot since i know that i wont get any answers. Not for now i wont. And that's for sure.

ouh n also,
when i said that i'm quit from waiting. I am, now. Since everything seems to turn to a great disappointment each time i wait. So, y not quit eh?

And if i did anything wrong. I'm so sorry. i really am. Everything was not on-purposed. And again, sorry.

flu?

2009-07-25T09:57:00.000-07:00

Yargh~ its been 3 days since i caught this fever. Currently taking some medicine for it. (T.T)

At first, i thought i was going to die because of this fever. Since H1N1 is reaaallly famous in malaysia now. hahah
but already confirm with the doctor and she said that this is a normal fever lah. Nothing to do with the virus. xP
Guess my imagination went too far this time eh? :P

Whoahoh, actually can't wait to see my results for the july's exm. Maybe i wont be that happy when i see them. Since i did just tembak2 some of the questions. ok. Not some. a lot. ;P
But tade pape da bole buat skang, so just tunggu result je lahh. :PP

ouh yea~
since its late oready, bttr gt goin'
until nxt time.
bye2
:D

exam; =.='

2009-07-20T05:48:00.000-07:00

Ohoh, i did target straight a's for this test actually. Well... i studied untill 4 am last night. (last minute study, not good. only dumb dumb do this thing. So dont do this.) xP

my mom said IF i score for this one she'll give me something. heheh

But then... everything changed when....

first paper...
still can endure the pain~ woohoo~

second paper...
erk....
no comment..
just wait and see for the result. But i guess it wont be that great though.. (T.T)

third paper...
bye-bye straight a's
(T.T)

the fourth paper...
when it was only 20 minutes left,
i realized that i did something wrong. Since i did memorized the formulae wrongly.
So, i had to do about 6 question all over again. (T.T)

but no matter what happened, or what will happen.
There are 6 more papers to go~
Just got to study lah. Nak buat macam mana lagi kan? =.='

but my exam-fighting spirit had went away. Since i have no confident at all that i will score for the second and third paper. (T.T)

wakenabeb

2009-07-16T08:37:00.000-07:00

Td jdk mangsa dorang wat kali neh. hahah
nad even buat aku lari satu sekolah just untuk kejar dia sbb amek kad matrix tuh. Haish, dalah baru dpt deyh, klau ilang x ke aku yg kena. hahah, da lari2 penat2. Then mcm bese aku looser n x dpt jgk keja dia. (T.T)

Yup, da nk wat mcm mna, mmg x pro pon nk lari2 neh. Lg2 nk keja nad. hahah, konfem lah aku ketinggalan.

Lepas da abes time p.j tu, smua kna g surau, 4 solat asar. Then time aku jln dpn few junior2 tuh. Dorang cam gelak2. Da pelek da time tuh. Tp sbb tgh penat time tuh, jdk wat dunno je lah. xP
ohoh, tetiba one of the exco pgws tego apa kat blkg aku tuh.
then, bila aku tgk, ouh.... mmg konfem lah. aku da kena 'wakenabeb~!' ngan my friends. hahah, geram jgk lah time tuh. :P

Malu? hahah, mmg malu kot. =,=
tp da dpt stu pglmn untk kenakan org kan?
heheh, tape2. Hari neh aku kena, next time korang ready2 lah. muahahah. :P

~~~~~~~~~

dorang : nad, ain, nina, nasu, alya, syerah, lien.
oit, lps neh, siaplah korang~
dont worry, akn dbls pyalah.
;P

keep holding on.

2009-07-13T15:20:00.000-07:00

Hmmm, currently feeling weird. Like always. hahah
Maybe it's just me. Ouh yeah, it is me.

The reality that i thought i had already accepted a long time ago came haunting me. It's hard though. Since i thought i had already get over it. But again..... maybe i'm not. Well.. not yet.

Looking at someone and don't really know how the person actually feels about u. Especially when u're looking at someone that u care.

And the hardest thing to do is actually just accept it. Because i don't really have another choices. T.T

Easy to say.. "just go with the flow~ just forget all bout it~ just do ur own thing" and bla bla bla.
But seriously, it is more hurting than it looks.

hahah, i guess from now on. Must keep trying to be a lil stronger.
but.. am i that weak? T.T

bad luck. =.='

2009-07-11T11:21:00.000-07:00

I got back from school. No one was home. So, i waited outside the house since i didn't bring the keys. And also i cant call anyone because my phone was inside the house. T.T'

Ouh, i went to the mosque to use the toilet, since i don't have any other choices. The toilet was creepy, no lights. Haish, but desperate moments, so i just ignore all that. Then, i went to the playground and sat at the swings. Suddenly i saw a man was screaming to someone at his back. But actually there's no one behind him. Dammit it was freaky and scary. T.T'

So, without waiting any longer, i went home. Again. Mum and dad still not home. T.T'

Ouh, lucky there was a comic inside my bag. So i read it. Few times. Ouh wait... more like 5 times. T.T'

then i waited and i waited for mum and dad. I'd even washed my shoes and watered the plant while i'm waiting for them. Since i don't have anything else to do.
So tired. all i can think by that time was how great can it be if i am in the house. T.T'

Ahha, then FINALLY, they arrived home, and i realized that it's been 4 hours since i waited for them to get home. T.T

lucky? huh..? =.='
but think on the bright side. I'd even washed my shoes. How great.

random;

2009-07-09T05:40:00.000-07:00

Hmmm, quite busy lately. With homeworks and more homeworks. T.T
But usually when i get back from home, the first thing that i'll do is landing on my bed. Nothing else. Too tired since now i walk everyday from school. *tgh amalkan hidup yg sihat dgn nina* xP

And also my mum said that i'm getting fatter these days. Maybe because of the food. Or lack of exercise~ And yeah, now i'm working my ass out to remove those fats again. Muahahah
Plan to go jog this sunday but still havent confirm with ain yet. Ain also is getting fatter, so.... erk. paham2 je lah . xP

Ouh something happened at school today, that made Nad pissed off. Kan nad kan? :P
And she'd even screamed like a retard because of that. hahah, apala~ xD
But tapela syg, saba je lah for now. In this world there's up and down for almost everything. Maybe now we are on the 'down' side. But don't worry, it will not be that long until we reach on the 'up' side. :)

And hmm~ my computer broke down because of something, and erk... maybe it gonna be a while since i'll update my blog after this. Sorry~

so until next time~ bye2. :)

subconscious mind.

2009-07-05T02:29:00.000-07:00

Last thursday, there's this uncle came and talk to us.. erk.. more to lecture, i guess. He mention about subconscious mind, conscious mind, and unconscious mind.
Ouh yeah, he told us that the most powerful mind of all is subconscious mind. And people who can actually control their subconscious mind is really powerful. More like they are gifted lah. Then the uncle also mention about something something else.

But among the stuffs that he mentioned...., about the subconscious mind is what grabs my attention the most. So, i searched about it on the internet and the results also quite interesting. :D
ouh, from what i understand from it,....
every minute, we will think about something right?
And everything that we think and also do, also the things that we believes and accept will be process in our sub-conscious mind. So, it is stated that if you are the type of person that always thinks in a negative way. Then, negative things will always occur in your life. So, people~ don't think and do negative stuffs from now on. It brings bad luck. xP

Long story short, :P
if you always think about how it is that difficult to be successful in your life. Then u will never be successful. So, what u need to do now, is just think positive to get what's best for u in ur life. :PP
But, how u act and how much u sacrifice ur time to success also affect the results. Because, even if u are a positive thinker, but, u didn't even do anything to grab the success, so~~ just say bye-bye lah to everything.
Hmm.. it is easy to say than to do it though, but it is worth a try. ;D

So, from now on, i gotta believe in myself that i can actually finish my homeworks and start working on it. So, it can actually be done. xP

ouh n, i don't even know the uncle, he just came to us and lecture us without even asking us either we want to listen to it or not. But then... to think in a positive way~ just take what's valuable that came from his words and just ignore what's useless. ;P

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

And ouh~
last but not least~
Happy Birthday nina-chan~! :D
Yesterday is a blast right? hahah
Also, thanx to the guys that joined us to make it more happening~
Ur co-operation is much appreciated. :P
And hey, nina;
good luck in all ur dreams.
I wish u all the best and may u will be bless always.
:)

Birthday girl~! Fighting~!
:D

swimming in mud. woohoo~

2009-07-04T08:36:00.000-07:00

Tadi syafiq abas azmi menggabungkan pandu puteri with pengakap n buat aktiviti-aktiviti yg boleh tahan agak mengarutnya, tapi best~ jadik mmg kena tabik lah kat syafiq lepas neh. :P

Menda tuh stat pukul 8. And pukul 8 jugak aku bgn pg td. wahahahah. tuh pon naseb baek masso call, kalau x konfem sambung tido sampai kul 10. xP
Sampai2 sekolah je terus stat lari pecut. Pastuh g kat tmpt yg sepatutnya bekumpul tuh. Then tetibe tenpandang kat tmpt pengakap, nampak satu org neh, mcm kenal je tgk mka dia. Rupanya mmg kenal pon. Haish~! dlm byk2 tmpt tejmpa dia kat sni jgk~ T.T

tape2, back to the story,..
hmhm, then game stat. Dapat clue2 smua2 pastuh group kiteorg dpt tugasan kena carik duet seposen kat kantin. And sebab kiteorg sgt jujur. Jadik kiteorg x menipu. xD
Then we end up dekat padang pulak. hahah, neh part yg plg memalukan neh.
Everyone kena msk dlm mud tuh tanpa segan silu, memula kak amira tolak smua boys yg da dlm our group. Then bila boys da abeh, dia tolak aku. Cett, x patot btol. xD
Nak x nk msk je lah kat dlm mud tuh~ ouh dia actually kena merangkak bawa tali. Ouh, ada mnda memalukan happen time aku kat dlm mud tuh. Tapi kat sni x yah lah cite~ wat malu kaum je nnt. xP

Then lps tuh kiteorg pegi stesyen2 laen n finally dpt numbe 4~ woohoo~ kire mng jgk lah tuh~
:PP

Walaupun hadiah dia x seberapa, tp puas hati lahh, sbb dpt experience baru. :D

before trusting someone.......

2009-07-03T08:14:00.000-07:00

huh.... For a moment there, i really thought that i could rely on this someone. But then,... everything changed.. I guess so..
Well, the person's attitude is not like what i had in mind. And i had a big shock when i knew what kind of person 'the person' is actually like.

ouh, what they said is true though.. Don't judge a book by it's cover. And don't rely on your first impression. Because sometimes, when you're actually hoping someone to be like his/her appearance, then, when they are actually totally diff from their outside, u will feel a great dissapointment and also like ur hopes had crushed and stabbed and punched and kicked. And that's what i'm feeling right now actually. T.T

It's such a fool of me to start making hopes in myself that quick. What a dummy-head i am. Haish~! But what's done is done. No one can change what had happened anyway... Well, if i knew this thing from the start,.. maybe i will not even feel this way.. T.T
Thanx to dina for revealing the truth anyway. hahah.....

But, untill now, the fact that really really did happened,... It's just sooo hard to believe. hmph. Yea, i am a pabo for judging someone before knowing them that well. huh. T.T

After this, no more. I'm done trusting them. But don't worry don't worry, i'll take on my revenge soon enough lah. muahahahahahahah xD

dead and gone already lah.

2009-07-01T07:14:00.000-07:00

hey people~ don't ever think being in highschool is that easy. It's hard lah. Seriously, it is. And i'm getting tired of it. There are some dudes that keep saying to me, "DO THIS, DO THAT. aND OUH, MAKE SURE IT IS PERFECT."

Haish, come on.. gimme a break for a while lah. I'm tired from all the fuss already.
And i am also a human that need my rest~

and about the homeworks also?! huih, i keep getting homeworks more and more lately. Yang tuh belom siap, daaa tambah yang baru. Dush2.
Aiyoo, teachers~ please have mercy lah, for once? xP

Ouh and lately, it's hard for me to even touch the pc and ps2. Sad isn't it? T.T
Sooo many things to do~ sooo little time.
And plus plus, i'm getting sick of this fever and i guess maybe it's because of this rainy season. Haiyo, the panadol is my bestfriend now.

that's it for now gotta go. :P
so, bye2 n untill next time.. :)

head-banging

2009-06-21T10:11:00.000-07:00

Urgh, it's 1.20 a.m..

The folio that i need to send it by tomorrow is still not touched yet since the last time i tried to finish it. T.T
My room's condition is almost unimaginable, since it's really really untidy, and it's making me feel weird somehow.

feels like really want to bang my head anywhere right now. Since everything inside it is screaming for help, and also screaming for an ice-cream as well. Huh, just maybe by saying the word "leave out all rest" over and over, i thought it would make me feel better. But .... hmm... no effect at all. T.T

hmm.. currently i keep singing the "because i'm stupid(english version)" song. I guess i am falling in love with it. Well, it is because of the lyrics though.
Just because the lyrics.

Kinda feeling weird right now.. Don't know why...

Seriously, there's a lot going on in my head right now.
Spinning and spinning.
Soo many things to do and think.
But soo little time...

Maybe it's better to just stay at home tomorrow instead of going to school. huh,
but there's a lot to do, so i guess i can't be absent by tomorrow.

Really really really tired right now...